Hello there, .doc speaking again.
Let me ask you this…
Have you ever been afraid of something you created?
No, forget that. Let’s start this over.
See, the worse I feel, the more I paint. I mostly do faces, just because it’s always interesting to explore the character, the emotion behind those masks of flesh and bones. The more complicated the face is, the better it works: painting something living, breathing and complex somehow soothes my soul better than any pills.
I paint A LOT these days. And I did need something to calm me down for a while, so I decided to try something new. At the moment I was listening to Peter Capaldi reading some incredibly sinister book, so…
…well. At some point the sketch looked like it was about to start swearing at me. That’s the angriest and saddest face I’ve ever painted, and it still frightens the Hell out of me. I was seriously stunned for a while right after finishing this, just because it felt like I’d never be able to paint anything more intense. ALL THE FRANKENSTEIN FEELS, you see. It’s either the best fan art I’ve ever created, or I’m still high on sedative pills.
I suspect it is both.
Anyway, I’ve made some postcards for my friends, just because it feels right to share this image. The glyph I included here is Gallifreyan for “hopeful”. And, just to conclude this entry and give you my reasons for choosing this glyph, here’s a quote from Clive Barker that describes… Well. It describes pretty much everything.
Hopelessness is reasonable.
But nothing of worth in my life came of reason.
Not my love,
not my art,
not my heaven.
So I am hopeful.
© Clive Barker, “Abarat III: Absolute Midnight”.